A cut, a nip and a tuck

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 5/15/2013 7:25:33 AM

'It is the 1980s, J has not conceived even after repeated tests she does not know the reason why. Morose she leads her life. Her vision gets faulty suddenly and she goes to the Ophthalmologist, he suspects something awry and sends her for a brain X-Ray. His suspicions come true. She has pituitary adenoma. A […]'

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Dark Secret

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 5/12/2013 6:01:11 AM

'We all called her Aayi, she was a mother to all. Her children were away in the USA. Daughter had married a South African,  son a German. But Aayi never cribbed. 'They are happy, that is all I want', she said. We worked for destitute women. Inspiring some, motivating others. Finding new opportunities, selling their […]'

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Silent conversation

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 5/6/2013 10:50:20 AM

'We were moving out of the mall when suddenly someone pulled my dupatta. I turned angrily. It was a woman in a hijab, with only her eyes visible. She raised a hand to ask for alms. I stared still angry at her. I looked at her eyes, they were watery and she seemed to say,  [...]'

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Happiness at a rupee

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 5/4/2013 5:56:15 AM

'Way back in the nineties, telephone was still a novelty and obviously mobile phones were unheard of. Call charges were high in the morning and there were reduced rates for the evenings and late nights. Which meant that we girls in the hostel of Maharani’s College Mysore rarely spoke to our family. The office was [...]'

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‘Gift’

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 4/28/2013 6:18:35 AM

'We came back with a gift. The meeting had been with a travel agency. They had some travel packages. Though we declined their offer, we were given a gift. We came home, I had some chores to finish but the kids were anxious to know what was in that gift and so they opened it. [...]'

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Of laukis and bhindis

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 4/25/2013 5:24:37 AM

'‘Eeks lauki’, screamed Ajay. I let out a sigh. I admit I am no master chef but I do try to cook a variety of cuisines err Indian, Chinese and Italian. I am appreciated by everyone except my family. And the worst of them is my teenage son Ajay. He has always been a fussy [...]'

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Safety, what is that?

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 4/21/2013 6:04:55 AM

'In an age where in parents have to work to sustain the family kids stay indoors; for no one takes them out to play. Standing, nose pressed to window grills they watch the world pass by.   Some where else kids do play in the belief that all is fine. Parents do watch out for [...]'

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Practice, it is…………..

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 4/18/2013 5:39:51 AM

'I call  my father on his mobile, he picks it up and speaks about a minute and then says ‘ I don’t know what else to speak’ and then passes the phone to mother. And then for the next minutes when me and amma are speaking, he will be prodding her from behind. As far [...]'

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Fortune favors the brave

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 4/15/2013 6:36:01 AM

'I have always been an outsider. When I was living in the North I didn’t fit in because I was basically a South Indian. When I came to the south, my accent classified me as a Northie. Now when I walk into the office in my salwar, women/ ladies/girls look at me and snigger. No, [...]'

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बदलते वक़्त

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 4/10/2013 6:05:10 AM

'कपडे तह कर में अलमारी में रख रही थी की मुझे ठक-ठक की आवाज़ सुनाई टी। बाजू वाला मकान खाली  था सो मैंने सोचा की शायद नए किरायेदार आये हैं।  पर नहीं, आवाज़ तो  घर के भीतर की थी। ‘बिट्टू , बिट्टू घर आ गए हो क्या?’ मेरे पांच वर्ष के बेटे को मैं खेलने ग्राउंड [...]'

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Simple Joys

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 4/8/2013 9:45:53 AM

'When the mind is engaged and the senses are busy; everything becomes joyful The sun is shining bright ( a tad too bright) but I am happy. It just means that my clothes will dry quicker I have a horrible throat congestion coupled with some wheezing but I am happy. I may lose some weight, [...]'

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Lessons fro a sapling

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 4/2/2013 5:57:32 AM

'Kirti opened the door. Joy Uncle’s voice boomed, “Who is it?” ‘It is me’, she said. ‘Ahh Kittu, come here’, he said. By here she knew that he meant his terrace garden. She found hm tending to a tiny sapling. Joy knew that something was wrong otherwise Kittu would not have come to him in [...]'

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MASK

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 3/28/2013 1:02:47 PM

'I have been busy. The workshop is on. Workshops are tough times, the preparations, conduct and the aftermath are all juggles. Handling 25+  kids; making them comfortable, making them understand what will be going on, the nature of study, all requires a cool mind, some psychology of a child’s mind and a liberal amount of [...]'

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YOU

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 3/26/2013 1:33:01 PM

'I felt cold the chill had not gone away even though I wore layers The pain in the heart the pain of the body would not go away. I was tired. Fed up of living, fed up of the pains fed up of the betrays I did not know whom to trust whom to look [...]'

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I was born….

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 3/19/2013 5:47:44 AM

'If I look 20 years back or so, nothing has happened in my life as planned. Whatever I envisaged for myself, has been lost in oblivion. What I didn’t dream of is now mine. So am I upset about it? Not really. Where I am standing right now, doing whatever…. is what which gives me [...]'

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कब आओगे

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 3/17/2013 5:53:46 AM

'नित्या गए द्वार द्वार कहे जागो जीव, जागो जीव अंतरात्मा मुझसे  कहे जागो जीव जागो जीव   और मै हू सोयी उम्रभर लक्ष्य है सामने पथ है निखर और मै हू सोयी जन्मभर .   कब आओगे मेरे पीया ले जाओगे हाथ पकड़ ?   ________________________________ * Nityanand Prabhu was the closest associate of Chaitanya Mahaprabhu [...]'

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A wedding and some realisations

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 3/13/2013 6:27:27 AM

'I sang a happy note while my hands were busy packing. For the next couple of weeks I would be with my family back home in India and I was so glad. Here yes we had made a home but missed India. The joys of walking on the streets,  the informality everything. ‘See, how happy [...]'

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Closed Door

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 3/9/2013 10:26:14 AM

'I tried to open the door. It was closed, tried pushing it but it didn’t budge and then panic stuck. Is it self-locked? Will he know how to open the lock? But then he is alert, he would have cried if the closed door didn’t open even when I pushed it. So it meant he [...]'

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Sisters

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 3/6/2013 3:18:19 PM

'Snigdha was reading a book, Mugdha came and called her, ‘Come lets go out have an ice- cream, come’ ‘I don’t want to’, Snigdha replied, besides I should not eat ice cream, I may catch a cold’ . Mugdha went away crestfallen. Reena; Snigdha’s mother sighed. Cancer does not just eat away your body, it [...]'

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Are you leading a boring life?

Author : Bhagyashree      Blog : Searching Self      Date : 3/4/2013 9:48:17 AM

'It is not me who is asking this question but its was one of the headlines in TOI two days back. Now what do I say. I mean what I like you may find boring and vice versa right. I read scriptural texts. I attend temple programs, I listen to relevant audios. I don’t like [...]'

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